Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 10:35 AM
to a whole new world.
I'VE MOVED.>www.glimpseof-paradise.tumblr.com
follow me there.
:D
Labels: to a whole new beginning
Thursday, January 28, 2010 @ 7:00 PM
i hate to make decisions.
i dont know what to say.
one word,
SPEECHLESS.
damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
just hope i can study hard.
and i comtemplating whether
to go arts or stream.
damn it.
if i go arts,
i can only go into social sciences at uni.
what if im not interested in geo anymore?
IM DEAD.
if i go science,
i have to take bio with chem.
the question here is,
can i cope and do well in h1/h2 chem with a
c6 for bloody olevels?
HELP MEEEEEEEEE SOMEONE.
):
Labels: decisions suck.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 7:34 PM
looking like its so complicated.
hello fellows! :D
firstly,
im going to innova jc.
hmm.
hopefully i can be happy there.
just have to study real hard.
going to school with surya.
:D
today met up with atiqah at 12.
was abit late but nvm la.haha!
trained to marina bay all the way.
had so much fun chit-chatting and laughing.
one of our most funniest chat was this:
me: so atiqah,what kind of house you wana buy when you grow up?
atiq: oh,penthouse.
me: huh?whats that?
atiq: like the top of a building..err.
me: HUH?then rain how?
atiq: *laughing, got shelter what.
hahahahahhaha.
most funniest conversation.
till now,im cracking up.
oh well.
headed to marina barrage.
and OMG.
that place really bored us.
no signs or whatsoever.
and we walking like lost souls.
ahahah.
and also made friends from someone in malaysia.
actually im not sure whether he is frm malaysia,
just assume only. :D
he thought we were tourists,and we had to explain
so much,thanks to atiqah!!!
at last,we went to take pictures and saw everyone having picnic.
so sad.hahha.
so,we left and trained back to vivo.
went there,and immediately headed to banquet.
hahaha,thats how hungry we two were.
i ate laksa,and she ate ban mian.
we were so full,but still after that,we went to buy
dark chocolate drink,AND IT TASTES AWESOMEEEEEEEE!
then went to candy empire
and looked around.
bought sour sweets and she bought some choc thing.
walked around and headed to bookstore.
talked about the MILLION-AND-ONE books we know,hehe!
then headed to the top floor,sat on grass,
and yes,we spent a ridiculous 10 mins to wonder if
the grass was real.but oh well,till now,its mystery.
HAHAHA!
then walked to the waters,and start playing around,
running here and there,and sometimes just sitting
down and looking into the waters,enjoying the wind
and the scenery.(filled with cranes and many other shit,)
but i felt so peaceful and so relaxed.
and i guess we deserve since we starting school tomorrow,
right atiq?
haha.
then headed to the ground level to take more photos. :D
even asked someone to take photos for us.
then after that trained home.
another funny conversation:
me: *talks talks talks about nonsense.
me: *looks at atiqah.
atiq: *looks at someone,and smiles and tries not to laugh.
me: *looks at atiqah.
atiq: *continues trying not to laugh.
me: atiqah,why?!
atiq: i tell u later.
me: okay.*continues talking.
me:*looks at her.
atiq: *tries not to laugh.
me: tell me!!!!
atiq: i type it out okay!
*types out in her hp.
shows me the msg.
HAHAHHAHAHA.
of everything,she laughed at a woman who had a moustache.
and not the NOT-OBVIOUS-KIND,but the kind which is super
wet(maybe cos she was perspiring,but still,EEW.) and so
obvious.
we two burst out laughing.
hais hais.
headed home and waiting for her to upload pics.
and dont be scared or shocked when you see them okay.
CANT BLAME US.
THE WIND WAS SUPER STRONG.
CANT POSSIBLY HOLD OUR HAIR AND TAKE PHOTOS RIGHT.
LOOK LIKE WE WEAR WIGS.
LOL.
oh well.
school tomorrow.
back to waking up at 5,long boring days at school,new uniform,
new books,new teachers,new friends,new environment and oh,
new bitches as well.
hais hais.
just hope life wont be hell for me there.
anyway,
best of luck for all my friends in their future.
we all go same uni okay? :D
hais.
im going to miss every single one in my life in that
not-so-long 4 years of grss life.
AND OH YES,
THE GRASS HURT OKAY.
SO FULL OF STINGS.
DAMNNNN.
SO NOW,I AM WONDERING,
IF ITS REAL?
HAHAHA.
and pspspspspsps/
i look DISGUSTING.
hahaha,its okay.nothing new.
cant find my school shoes.
damnnnnnn.
Labels: new beginning, perhaps?
@ 8:45 AM
i should have known,in this world,im always alone.
all of a sudden.
i feel so alone facing this world.
i am going to miss the times where,
i come into the school and i head to the foyer.
i sit with my friends and we talk all sorts of crap.
i would say hi to aaron and bryan when i see them.
i would be talking to marcus and arguing with him at assembly.
i would be saying hi to eunice,and she would be,HEY BEGUM!
i would be smiling widely at nick,and he would be doing the same thing.
i would make fun of madhavi with yunkhim all the time.
i would be chatting with atiqah and sameen when mr chui talks.
i would be taking photos in the toilet.
i would be sitting at the back of the class talking to bryan.
i am going to miss everything.
because im going to be alone in that school.
damn.
i hate this damn feeling.
at PSLE,
i never felt that way.
guess because i couldnt read my own feelings.
but now,im feeling terribly alone.
scared of everything.
GAAAAAAAAAH.
nevermind.
guess i have to face the world alone.
Labels: i shall face it all alone.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 9:42 PM
plans cancelled.damn.
@ 7:28 PM
when i look at you,the whole world fades away.
everyday facebooking equals to boredom and sick of facebook.damn.
tomorrow is probably last day of fun.
nmaybe saturday as well.
then if i get into jc,
BACK TO SCHOOL ON THURS.
LIKE OMGWDFDAMNSHITASS.
school starts early.
good luck shamimah.
*shakes hand.
damn.
cant wait for tomorrow.
want this day to end.
or maybe waiting for nijangal!
;D
Labels: fall to pieces?
Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 5:10 PM
transformer right at cck!
I DID SOMETHING TO ME MY HAIR!
GO SEE IN FACEBOOK OKAY!
AND TELL ME UR HONEST OPINIONS.
NOT THAT UR OPINIONS CAN CHANGE ANYTHING.
BUT FOR ONCE,
IM FEELING HAPPY ABOUT THE WAY I LOOK.
(:
Labels: nothing changes;
@ 11:09 AM
and all you have to do is to find the spark.
HAHAHHAA.
was reading all my old posts,from 2008,
and omg,
CANT BELIEVE I USE TO BLOG THIS WAY.
the way i blog last time is damn funny.
HAAHHA.
and i was so depressed last time
that im laughing my ass out now.
sigh.
Labels: memories stay within?
Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 9:41 PM
en kadhal solla...
hello people!
have been quite busy for some time.
so many things to do.
will not be blogging too often either.
kinda lost my mood to blog these days.
the crave is just gone.
and oh,
YES,
YOU HAVE CHANGED.
dont ask me for the better or the worst.
thats for you to decide.
have a great week ahead.
:D
Labels: busy as a bee.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 9:26 PM
have to take the right one.
IM SO CONFUSED.
I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO.
ITS NOT LIKE AS IF I HAVE SO MUCH CHOICES AS WELL.
AND OMGWTH,I DONT EVEN LIKE SOME.
SO MUCH FOR DOING WELL.
DAMN.
ONLY HAVE 2 MORE DAYS.
-.-
shitty.
Labels: where should i be?
Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 9:29 PM
fated.
i dont know whether im sad or happy.
dont ask me.
all i know is im dissapointed in myself.
but oh,
IM PROUD OF YOU BABE.
U MADE ME REAL PROUDDDDDDD.
ALL THE BEST FOR UR FUTURE.
SAMEEN.
YOU ARE GREAT.
SERIOUSLY.
I AM REALLY PROUD OF U.
BEST OF LUCK FOR UR FUTURE.
YOU WOULD DEFINETELY GO FAR! :D
oh well.
nevermind.
no more words.
just glad everythings' over.
Labels: done and forgotten;or maybe not.
Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 9:51 AM
its just the wait for the day thats making me feel all weird.
JANUARY 11TH.
IT WILL EITHER BE THE BEST or the WORST
day of my 16 years.
i dont want to dream or hope,in case i fail myself again.
i will let god decide my path.
Labels: 110110.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 9:20 PM
i dont know what i want.
if you hate me or if im not who i was to you once.tell it to me straight.
damn.
stomach ache just isnt getting better.
results out on 11th.
freaked out.
oh well.
Labels: 5 more days.
Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 9:53 PM
aaaah fuck.i think i will die out of stomach-ache.
food poisoning?
hell yeah!
@ 10:22 AM
its either distinct or im just imagining.
i can see that distinct line you are drawing between you and me.
i can just not only see,but feel it too.
long gone the days,where i talk with ease.
who knows?
you might be the next to leave.
oh well.
whatever.
whatevers' suppose to happen,would happen.
Labels: leaving so soon?
Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 6:47 PM
what a stupid irony.
hello!
im so tired.
damn.
only slept for 7 hours.
whatt?!
thats little for me okay.
saturday was a busy day for me.
around the afternoon,went to my tuition teacher's wedding.
gosh,she looks sooo beautiful and the food was real good.
oh well.me like! :D
then,went bpp,went shopping.
around 5,met the rest and went to the temple.
waited around,looked at the funfair and then
went into the hall.
started helping out as we are suppose to.
and then,helped and enjoyed the show all the way till 10.30.
made new friends as well. :D
went home after a tiring day.
ate and slept like a pig.
today woke up around 7,and left the house before anyone woke up.
HAHA!met up with monessa and vino.went to have macdonalds breakfast
and trained to yew tee.meet up with all the rest and trained to
braddel.went to buy roti prata and breakfast for the rest and went
to the house.did our jobs,and laughed and had fun.though,it was preety
irritating.just cracked jokes with vino/monessa/sandhya and kasthuri.
fun.went for lunch and then waited for producers and all!after that,
had chats together and trained home.otw,ate ice-creams and went to look
at wedding gowns.HAHA!then trained to bp,went temple and met surya,
gave her some necessary stuffs and then off home! :D
came home,and almost got scolding from dad.
haiya.
and now.
to YOU.
listen up.
I DONT FUCKING CARE ABOUT U ANYMORE.
I MEAN IT.OKAY,DIE OR WHATSOEVER BUTTTTT FOR ALL I CARE.
AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME,I SWEAR NEVER IN MY LIFE WILL I
EVER TALK TO U AGAIN.NOT EVEN LOOK IN YOU FUCKING DIRECTION.
GO ON,AND SAY WHATEVER SHIT U WANA SAY ABOUT ME.WHATEVER
NONSENSE U SPIT,IF PEOPLE BELIEVE,ITS FUCKING OBVIOUS,THEY
ARE BLOODY STUPID AS WELL.THOUGH WE DID FUCKING THINGS FOR
EACH OTHER,I KNEW YOU WOULD GO BACK TO THEM.FINE!GO,FOR ALL
I CARE.BUT DONT COME RUNNING BACK TO ME.AND SAYING SORRY OR
WHATSOEVER SHIT.BECAUSE,FUCK U,I WOULD JUST FUCKING SLAP U
OR DO SOMETHING TO SHOW MUCH I HATE YOU.I MEAN IT.I BLOODY
HATE U.
work next week.
and school is starting for the rest.
damn.
how i wish i could go as well.
):
Labels: miss to study.
Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 11:23 AM
fall to pieces.
hello.
yesterday was okay.
cant believe on the first day of 2010,
i actually actually ate macdonalds!
gosh.
i just broke my resolution to have a good diet
to lose some fats! damnnn!
well yesterday,headed over to my cousin's house.
and then,i went to watch,
ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2!
OMG!
they were sooooo cuteeeeeeeeeee!!!!
seriously.
i absolutely love the green one!
hahah!
i watched it twice already,and omg,it is sooo nice.
heheh.
im practically grinning to myself.
and im totally paiseh.
ahaha.
(after the totally awesome movie)
me: omg lah,they are sooo cute.they look so cute,especially
the green one.omg,so fat and so chubby.thats it,i want
to have a hamster,a really fat one,and im going to call
it whatever name the green one has.hahaha.*starts thinking.
parthiban: hamster?hello,thats a chipmunk.in other words,
(i interrupted him.)
me: isnt it all the same?and well,hamsters look that cute as well!
parthiban: erm,chipmunks are somehow similar to squirrels.only
squirrels can run that fast...(BLAH BLAH,HE RAMBLES ALL
HIS ANIMAL KNOWLEDGE TO ME.)
me: okayyy.and so?i have to keep a squirrel or a chipmunk or a hamster?
parthiban:*rolls his eyes.(I PRACTICALLY SAW HIM DOING THAT),
i wonder how you past your comprehension.
hais.
by then i was hungry,
and so i replied him,
me: I NEVER DID.
hahaha.
and then he started questioning me how i got a b3 for prelims.
gosh.
that guy is full of crap.
HAHAH!
(:
i realise something.
sometimes when you try too hard,it just slips out of your hand.
and oh,
simple.
it just depends on who you believe.
i have a very busy day today.
i wonder if i can get it all done.
):
ps/
just saw on marcus facebook,
that o'levels results will be on 11-13 jan.
LIKE OMG,thats fucking fast.
and im so scared.
really really scared.
because i really really,(x100) wonder if i did well.
*sad life.
pps/
in my last post,i forgot to add two facts about 2009!
#10.
I HAD H1N1.hahahahh!
#11.
i almost died by fajar road with a wounded knee that was losing
a huge amount of blood,and not allowing me to walk around for
about a week.
oh well.
Labels: saturday's madness.
Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 11:21 AM
starting anew,perhaps?
phew.
2010 is here.
seems so fast.
just another 9 more months,
and i'll be bloody 17.
whoa.
well.
lets reflect back what happen in 2009 alrights.
i know i know,people say dont look back,
but too bad.im going to.
why 2009 was a..erm..
(i dont even have any words to describe it.)
(gosh.)
fine.
i shall say the facts about 2009.
2009 was a year that,
#1.
i cried the most.(*duhhh,i can see madhavi and the rest nodding.)
#2.
i took my o'levels.
#3.
i made new friends.
#4.
i lost some friends and realised who were the true ones.
#5.
my trust in love vanished completely.
#6.
i began doubting my capabilities.
#7.
i met someone interesting for at least 5 months.
#8.
i met a witch who was utterly disgusting.HAHA.
#9.
i am still alive and heading out in the world after grss.
well.
only 9 facts k.
cos im lazy and also 2009 whatt!
so nine facts la!
oh well.
many has happen in 2009.
i only can remember one which will never forget.
i really really,
cried alot this year.
wonder how many tons or gallions of water was wasted.
HAHAH!
hais hais.
i just really really HOPE 2010 would be good.
as in,just satisfying.
cant hope for too much either.
i remember i had a post on 31-12-08.
saying all my resolutions.
HAHAHAH,i dont think i did any of it.
lets see.
that post.
aiights,so i shall start.
#1- study real hard & put in my best for olevels.
#2- be a filial child to my parents.
#3- start being a tad more religious.
#4- try to be neat.*grins.
#5- no more foul words to be used,by person/blog.
ps/gna be hard,but i will try.
#6- do not lie for whatsoever reasons.
#7- give up on love.
ps/OH WAIIITTTT.i alrdy did.gah.haha.
#8- appreciate my friends/classmates.
#9- enjoy school life and stop grumbling when homewk is given
#10- save money as world is going through recession.
#11- be a good samaritan and give more donation.
#12-ENJOY LIFE & MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD OF ME,SHAMIMAH.B!!!
HAHAHHAHAHAH!
okay,
hmmmm.
i didnt at all do #3.
dont ask why.
#7 was what i did though.
seriously!
#5,
noppeeee,never did.HAHAH!
#10,
i never did save money.
#11,
erm,didnt do much donation,but alot of volunteerism.
okay la.
i think i at leats did 1/4 of it.
happy whattt!
:D
ts a start of another decade.
hoepfully i live till 26.
haha.
oh well.
i just want to tell myself that whatevers happen
would happen.and it already did.can never change
it.maybe one day,when im old enough,i would look
back and laugh.but for now,they are just memories.
some old memories,that only can be with a wistful
sigh.some new ones,which hurt,and they sting badly.
just like a new bee's sting.but as time goes by,it
would heal,but im sure the scar would still be there.
i guess everything happens for a reason.some things
which happen in my life,i already found out the reason.
but some,not yet.its still hidden there,just have to
continue finding it.some of them,till now,i havent know
the reason.but maybe,its just my fate not to know the
reason.oh well.
i just hope i can be happy in 2010.
no matter what.
im probably going somewhere new,
and making new friends.
lets not talk about love.
i just want to be someone new for a change.
lets just wait and see alrights.
wait and see what has 2010 kept in store for us.
happy new year everyone.
Labels: 2010.
