Monday, November 30, 2009 @ 6:33 PM
and im just a girl.
you are the only one
i wish i could forget.
the only one i would
love not to forgive,
and though you break my heart,
you are the only one.
Labels: dont ask me.
@ 10:25 AM
anything but ordinary.
entertain me,anyone?Labels: nthnth.
Sunday, November 29, 2009 @ 7:52 PM
if only you realised.
hello people.
i'm going to dye my hair this colour.
im sure i would look good.
yes,to see me in this hair colour,
come meet me okay.
bye.
Labels: new look.
Friday, November 27, 2009 @ 2:27 PM
a decision made.
hello people!SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
currently waiting for lunch.
super hungry.
gosh,getting fatter siah!
and how lucky can i be.
have sore eyes on this day itself.
-.-
blame the loss of sleep of mine.
gosh.
cousins staying over.
yey! :D
i dont know why.
i dont feel myself.
i have so many feelings inside me.
but no one is there,
just to listen.
Labels: hari raya haji loved.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 @ 9:49 PM
did you forget?
please ignore the first part.editted under///////////////////
does everyone in the world,at least once,fall in love
with the wrong person?
fall in love with someone you know made a change in your
life?made you smile and laugh whenever you are near?made
you think of him whenever there is some song sung.and also,
made you realise he isnt meant for you.but you cant get him
out of your head?only to realise he is slowly advancing to
your heart withought you able to stop it.and you know you
are going to get hurt at at last.and thats when you make up
your mind to forget that person.but,as time passes by,you
cant forget that place where you first met.you cant forget
your first glance,your first words,your teasing each other.
none of it.and then,it hits you,that you cant forget any of
it.it just fades.and it only does when you least expects you.
and the next time you walk pass that place,you would think of
the affection and smile rather than feel the piercing pain
somewhere deep inside your heart.for,those are meant to be
memories,arent they?
someday,i would get it over with.but i do know i would never
forget you.even if i could,i wont.the 3 months,22 days,
that i got to know you,would never leave me.i am really going
to miss you.but i really wish i knew some things about you.just
knew,to store in my memory.
things change,dont they?
thanks for leaving without telling me.at least,you realise that
it would hurt me more.
you are meant to be faded in my heart.
but still etched.
somewhere deep inside.
its aching.
but that would be gone.
dont worry.
not you.
never you.
love is just a word,
until you find someone to
give it a definition.
its my own thoughts.
fuck you all if ripped.
im upset.
nothing you guys can do about.
have a great day! :D
will blog again soon.
............................................................................
gosh,i have nothing to say.
i am having fucking headaches this second,
because of loss of sleep yesterday night.
whoa,rolling around in bed,mentally making
up blog posts,thinking about YOUUUU
and YOUUUU,can make me sleepless.
interesting.
-.-
okay,fine,this is it.
guys,please,think for a while.
neither of you wants to give in.
neither of you wants to forgive.
neither of you wants to say,"im sorry."
neither of you make the effort to understand each other.
neither of you do anything!
do you realise,
that its always me making the damned effort to get back
you and you together?
and,no it isnt taken seriously,is it?
just because someone rakes up the past,or someone does a
small 'forgetting about you' mistake,it doesnt leave your
memory,does it?
and because of that thing,
this fucking sentence comes out,
you see,i told you,we just dont get along.
fucking shit.
if you guys didnt get along,you guys would have never been together
from the first place?
why whenever you guys fight,
you only think of whatever wrong you guys did at that point of time,
but do not,just sit down,think of how much fun you guys have with each
other,the amount of endless love you guys have for each other?
of course you guys wont.
both of you are that stubborn.
cant one of you take tha initaitive to call up each other and meet up
to talk it out?
what kind of fuck question is this,
"why cant she do it?"
fuck it man.
why cant you be the unique one to call the other?
and if both of you actually take the initiative,
trust me,life would be so much better.
you know,change is a big word.
saying it is fucking easy.
doing it is another story.
you see,
i know LOVE isnt forever,
and nothing ever lasts,
but maybe things would be different,
and outcomes would be possible,
because all that was just the PAST.
come one,people,move on.
trust me,it would be a whole lot better.
sit down.
think.
reflect.
about how much we had together.
wait.
correction.
how much both of you had together.
i think thats all i can say.
i have had enough of trying to get you guys together.
if both of you had thought of how much MORE you guys
can have together,then make the move,and clear up all
the trouble you both had.
if both of you are going to be as stagnant as always,
and waiting,for the other to do something,then,trust
me,im going to give up and just be gone.
accept each other for who they are.
forgive each other wholeheartedly,
because if you realise,
its easier to forgive an enemy
than a friend,isnt it?
pffffft.
do it for yourself,people.
my say is over.
no matter what,you guys are still my life.
but trust me,if it doesnt work,i would rather
give it all away.
to make it work,its up to you guys.
maybe,think again.
of everything we had.
and everything we could have.
and to all the no.1 kaypohs' out there,
please be mindful that this is about
NO ONE that any of you knows.so dont,
make up stories,because none of you,i
repeat none,knows about this.and so,
the people who is suppose to read it,
and whom will,will know.
Labels: how are you?
@ 9:48 AM
a special gem in my life.
hello people!god,my life is so boring.
HAHAH!
i am gonna go out today and enjoy my life out.
and hari raya haji is coming,and im so excited
about it as well!then im having a sleepover with
my darlings,and gosh,cant waittttt!
but till then,my weekdays are packed,NOT.
sad life. ):
im gonna find a job sooner or later.
first,its no point me rotting at home.
and secondly,i rather have money in my hands,
then nothing! :D
i have actually nothing to blog about,
so im going to bury my head in cafe world.
yes,i have no life at all.*shakes head.
im dissapointed.
i realise there is no point waiting.
im just going to fall.
without you to hold me up.
sayonara,chicka!
Labels: so much for dreams.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009 @ 11:35 AM
beautiful nightmare?
gosh.
im sooo bored.
i have nth to do.
yes,again.
i actually stopped changing skin continously when i was in sec2.
and here i go,i start again!
finding for a new one! :D
this shows,i am the same old me.
never satisfied.
shit.got to learn to accept.-.-
IM SO BOREDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to do so many things.
but gosh,i seemed so busy the last few weekends,
and i have absolutely nothing to do now.
damn.
i just have to go shopping!
craving for it.
gaaaaaaaah.
speaking of cravings,
i just ate 200g of famous amos cookies yesterday night,
thank you very muchhhh,parthiban,and goshhhhhhhhh,
I WANT MOREEEEEE.
AHAHAH.
which reminds me,
i have to hit the gym soon.
oh god.
every organ in me screams BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
okay,i'll blog later.
i think im going bonkers.
Labels: random.
Monday, November 23, 2009 @ 12:22 PM
a blessing in disguise.
it makes me think.
hmm.
so there,
there is this boy,
he is called, mr amazing,
and yeah,
that preety much explains it.
(:
Labels: just a thought.
@ 11:42 AM
a girl worth kissing,is never easily kissed.
hello beauties! :Dgosh,what a busy weekend.
i didnt even get enough sleep since i returned from genting.
phew.
saturday-
woke up early,got ready and went to ramesh's house.
went with vino and met surya there.
waited for a while for jas,and off to our area.
once reached,immediately did our jobs and i was working
with kasturi,and gosh,super tiring.ppfft.
rest for awhile,all of us had our lunch,and then,just sat
down and relax.around 5,went ramesh house to wash up and
get ready for our show.
around 7,went back and got ready for our show.
we all had to help out,so all of us were busy.
the PUYAL team danced,and it was super!!!!
boom sang as well,and it was damn nice. :D
the show went damn well.
saw so many vasantham artistes,and got so happy!
HAHAHH! saw many dancers as well,and many INTERESTING
people.LOL!
had our dinner,and slack all the way till 12 plus.
got tired and cabbed back home!
reached home,and again,dead on bed.
sunday-
needed to go for shooting.
met with vino/boom and jas first.
then saw ramesh/mr suresh and mrs umma.
met up with the rest as well,and had our breakfast.
all of us bused down to far east plaza,bought some
food and then cabbed to buo crescent.
went to the house and then,we started to do our jobs.
we were being filmed,but all of us were sincere and
hardworking.it was super tiring,but im sure all of us
were fucking satisfied.HAHA.
then,around 5,left and went to tiong bahru plaza.
gosh,that place holds alot of memories,man!
trained down to jurong,and off to jurong community centre.
we were invited to a show and dinner,thus we were enjoying
itself.anddd,i saw soo many people whom i know there.damn.
though the show was filled with songs,i was laughing so much
that it was fun the whole while.had our dinner,and around 10.30,
was sent back home by surya's dad.thanks uncle! :D
reached home around 11,bathed,played chess/checkers,and then
off to sleeeppppppp!!!
and im not going out today.
super tired,and just wished to slack at home.
have to clean up my utmost dirty room,which is filled
with all my half-torn books.
pppffffft.
oh waaaasaaabi,
you are in my thoughts.
shit.
if you wait too long for the perfect moment
the perfect moment will just pass you by.
so true,isnt it?
fuck.
im getting tired of certain people,
their fucking drama,
and all the bullshit they bring along.
Labels: no shit.
Friday, November 20, 2009 @ 8:13 PM
life is fun with the right people(:
hey people!im back from genting!
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
it was fucking fun.
kay,maybe not so much because we were
so full of crap,but still enjoyable.
okay,first day.
tuesday-
had to meet at 6.30am in the mrng at bpp.
i was late,sorry people,and we left.
slept at the back of the bus with yk & boom.
was thinking of someone,and gosh,my mind likes
to imagine alot of stuff uh.*fat hope!
went checkpoints,then off to MALAYSIA!!!
slept,slept,slept all the way till
GENTING!!!!!!!!!!.
reached there around 1/2,
walked around and we had our lunch!
went back to lobby and sat down,waiting to check in.
played cards/talk/camwhore and do all sorts of stuff.
aaron and boom tried to open up edwin's suitcase!
HAHAHA.
we checked in,bathed and rest in the guy's room for a while.
then,we left for bowling.HAHHA.and we didnt bowl,but we camwhore
like siao,with all the wierd ways.LOL.and then headed to haunted
house,and OMG!,its fucking scary sia.all i knew was that i was
screaming in marcus ears and asking huida to move faster.but he,
went on to scare us more,that all of us ran out.HAHAHA!
and gosh,the guy asking us to play is even mre scary.
HAHAA,sssshhhh!
then went for our dinner at pizzahut,and went to watch a magician
show.sat beside marcus,talked about some stuff and then enjoyed the
show.fun fun!walked around and then went karoake with marcus,aaron,
boom,yk and huida.we sang chinese songs,old english songs,and had
so much fun laughing.AAHHAH!then we went back to the room,and slept!
:D
wednesday-
woke up at around 6,and tried waking up the guys,but to no avail.
AHHAH.went to bathe/wash up and then waited for the rest in their room.
went down for breakfast tgt and had a hearty one!hahah!went to themepark
and bought tickets.we had a soccer formation,because of aaron's idea,
which,*cough,didnt work,AHAHAH!went to play the roller coaster.i didnt
play,cos i wasnt feeling that well,so went to watch them with yunkhim.
HAHHAA.they seem to have alot of fun!and guess what,it rained after that!
gosh,we were so irritated!hahhaa.after a while,we walked indoors,and then
the rain stopped.went to queue for pirate ship,but GAHHHH,it rained again!
by then,we got so irritated that we went for lunch.since,room 8421 was in
financial crisis,we ate cup noodles!HAHAHHA!and then,wanted to go gym
but had a afternoon nap instead.woke up,went to guys' room and sat down,
watched movie,eat and play cards.since,it was preety boring,we started to
sleep!AHHAH!
thursday-
woke up abit late,wash up/bathe,met with boys and had our breakfast!
it was still raining,so went to check up on tickets to KL with aaron/boom
and yk.then,headed down with everyone,bought tickets,and off to KL! :D
sat on teh bus for an hour,and reached there.had to take the KL train,
and gosh,the number of trains we took to reach to the shopping centre!
AHHAHA.but it was super fun.then,we split,and off to,WINDOW shopping.
ate ice-cream with boom/yk/marcus/aaron.walked around,and then,went to
TOY CITY!saw a small tiny merry-go-round,and whoo,me/boom/yk started playing
it.and then,saw the other guys,and all of us started to play on it.HAHAH!
aaron took a video,and i have pictures as well! we all looked damn comical!
HAHAHH!then,went for lunch.the guys went to carl's jr,whereas boom/yk and me
went to eat at food junction.HAHHH!ate penang kway teow and it was niceeee!
walked around with the boys again,started making jokes about MEHHHH-LOOOO!
hahahah,*inside joke! :D
trained back to the bus area,and one mre hour back to genting.
talked alot with yk,and reached hotel room!had time till about 11,so boom
slept for a while,aaron bathed,the rest went to arcade.i was learning card
games by marcus in the room with yk!hahahaha.had much fun lah,aaron joined
us and we ate hotdogs.(:
around 12,woke up boom,and washed up/bathe to go to a club.
the rest came back,and all left except me/yk/boom/aaron.we had to act like
18,and so,we went into the club.HAHAH!
ordered drinks,and just sat down and watched live band.
AHHAHAHAH.the band was crap!AHAHAHHAH!around 2,went out of the building,
and OMG,fucking cold,we walked a long distance,just for fun and to waste time.
i was talking crap with the always crappy marcus sng,and then went starbucks
cafe.sat down,played cards till 3.45.went to buy sandwiches with aaron/yk and
headed back to room cos we were quite tired.went back room,wasnt sleepy and
yk was eating cup noodles.and then,we didnt sleep till 4.45.started to do
our DIY necklace with boom/yk till 5.30.got bored,and then slept because marcus
suppose to wake us up at 6.30.HAHA!at last,slept till 9.
friday-
breakfast ended at 10,therefore hurried up,woke up huida/aaron.
we all washed up/bathe since the rest didnt sleep the whole night,
and at 7,went to eat their breakfast.AIYOOO.haha.and then,went for
breakfast,and packed our stuff.walked to watsons with boom/yk and omg,
saw her little brother!SUPERRRRRRR CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
walked around and then,walked back to hotel,took our suitcases,and
walked to the bus.HAHAH.since we all didnt sleep much,all dead in the
bus,i slept all the way till 5,and then damn awake.all us ate our small
small snacks,and then reached SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
went back to bpp,and we all went back our seperate ways!
:D
gosh.how fun!
seriously got to know everyone there better!
:D
JUST GOT HOME,
and now blogging/facebooking and waiting for yk!
hahaha.
i have busy schedules lah!
i have to go for deepamalai/shooting this weekend,
and more to come this week!
wooo!
and pictures would be soon in facebook!
wait alrights!
ps/
sorryyy nasim/sha!
next week,we shall have our sleepover!
sorry!! :D
and YOU,
YOU CAN SAY ANYTHING ABOUT ME,
AS YOU PLEASE.
BUT I AM WHAT I AM.
AND THATS SOMETHING,
YOU CAN NEVER EVER BE.
understood,bitch?
AHAHHAHAHAHHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAH.
i realise,sometimes people are just abit too wierd.
they act like what they arent.
and they make me laugh.
gosh,how FAKE can you get?!
i cant wait to enjoy my weekend with my boom/vino!
longing to head out.
and oops sorryyyyy,
i forgot about you.
Labels: genting trip.
Sunday, November 15, 2009 @ 7:11 PM
if only you knew the truth.
hey people!
omg,at last i actually have a chance to sit down and actually
relax and also play cafe world! :D
alrights,lets start!
friday-
after final exam,at 9,met victor lee
and did some stuff.and then,headed
to bangkit with surya and yk.
then,headed home,did a small jiggle dance,
and sat on the computer.
blah blah blah.
around 1,met up with surya,rhaga,suriyan and linges.
watched 2021. ((((:
omfg!
its a fucking nice movie!!!!!!
x1000!
oh god,seriously.
i cried because i could feel myself in the situation.
fucking scary.
but,oh god,
go catch it if you can.
and then,met up with azhar,sha and nasim.
AHAHA.went to eat NAAN at jp and we went mac.
sat down,talked some funny shit and then went to library.
sat down,take newspaper and we talked and talked.
all the way to 11.
took bus back to jurong.
went sha's home,changed and then..
HAHAHA.
we didnt at all do anything much all the way till 3!
only remembered we laughed.
all wanted to watch KANDAEN KADHALAI,
but we all slept.just for a while.HAHAHA.
saturday-
nxt mrng,woke up,wash up and took breakfast at sha's house.
took bus back to boon lay with nasim.
went back home,rest and off to mosque.
HAHA.was there all the way till 6.
i had so much fun!
(:
then around 6,rushed to lot one,and then trained to yew tee.
met surya under ramesh blk,went to change,and off to deepavali
celebrations!went to sit down,and then started our help-outs.
laughed,took pics and had so much fun. (:
and then,smth happen.
ad friends,hope you all are fine.!
lepak till 12,
and then sent back by surya's dad.
reached home,dead on bed!!!
sunday-
woke up at around 6.30,
got ready and off to mosque. :D
had my jobs done,and goshhh,
hmm,erm,i saw someone,interesting!
HAHAHAHHA.
phew.
hormornes raging.
haha,soooo........*sighs.
headed home and needed to catch up with my sleep.
totally pangsei attiyah,sorry babe! (:
later,might just head out to meet important people.
HAHA.
ps/
SHALEEHHAAAAAAAAAAAA,
cheer up!!!!!!!!
and gosh,im soooo tiredd.
probably because my sleep routine is crazy these days.
and omg,
i saw YOU.
and you lookeddddd....
hmm..
lets just say,
amazing!
HAHHAHHA.
sshhhhhh.
happiness is just like a butterfly.
the more you chase it,the more it would elude you.
but if you turn your attention to other small things,
it will come and sit quietly down on your shoulder.
Labels: first proper post.
Friday, November 13, 2009 @ 10:50 AM
a free bird.
the feeling is exhilarating.oh god.
BYEBYE o's.
HELLO happiness.
:D
i would be back.
i have plans.
(:
Labels: grins.
Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 7:12 PM
the end.
patience shamimah.just 13 hrs 15 mins more.
i would be free.
(:
just wait,i would return.
*smiles widely.
Labels: awaiting.
