Saturday, February 28, 2009 @ 5:09 PM
all about passion.
and just when i thought,"its okay,i dont have him.
i have you.you will always
be with me through everything".
just when i thought,
you go about saying you
want to be alone.
you dont need anyone.
Labels: say it out loud.
@ 4:05 PM
sucker.
current mood: bored/tiredlistening to: vaseegera
1]Have u woke up next to stranger?
"no,obviously not."
2] Luv someone but they didnt luv u back?
"yes.totally."
3]Ever wasted your time on someone, who didnt appreciate it?
"yessa,"
4]Have children?
"nah."
5]Are you married?
"no.do i look like i am?"
6]Hiding any secrets?
"deep in me,"
7]Are u angry with someone right now?
"yes.very."
8]Ever played strip poker?
"no."
9]If u had to choose 1 of your friends to mess around with, who would it be?
"HAHAH.nah.no one"
10]Are u single, taken or not sure?
"isnt this duh?im single."
11]Ever drank to much and did something u were not suppose to?
"i am not answering this.(:"
12]Whats the funniest thing that has happend to u?
"lots of stuff.i am a joker."
19]Whats the worst thing that has happened to u?
"lots of them."
20]If u could change one thing in your life what would it be?
"get this someone out of my head."
21]Ever gone skiing?
"no."
22]Whats ur fav. color?
"black,purple,green."
23]If u could pick any kind of car u wanted..what would it be?
"i dont know.i aint a fan of cars."
24]Would u date outside your race?
"hmm."
25]Whats ur fav. food?
"seafood,yo."
1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty
"Single"
2) Are you happy with that?
"i dont know.i really dont."
3) Would you kiss your ex?
"no."
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
"yes.duh.*rolls eyes."
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is oK?
"no way."
7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
"hmm,yes."
8) Do you want children?
"yessa,"
9) How Many?
"idk."
10.) Would you consider adoption?
"sure2."
11) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
"nothing.keep it to themselves,"
12) Do you want someone you can’t have?
"yes.lots."
13) Have you fallen in love?
"yes."
14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
"yeahhh,"
15) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
"yeah,but aint full-heartedly."
16.) Is it a good day?
"no."
17) Have you ever broken a heart before?
"hahaha.yes."
18) Does your ex still have feelings for you?
"dont know, dont care."
19) Do you still have feelings for them?
"no"
20) Do you believe in long distance relationships?
"nope."
You have to use 3 words to answer each question. No more, no less. It’s harder than you think.
1. Where is your cell phone?
- in my room.
2. Your girlfriend/boyfriend/hubby?
- never having one.
3. Your hair?
- over my face?
4. Where is your father?
- on the sofa.
6. Your favorite thing to do?
- dancing in the rain.(i know,it isnt 3 words!*grr.)
7. Your dream last night?
- someone loved me
8. Your favorite drink?
- double chocolate frappe.
9. Your dream car?
- dont have one.
10. The room you’re in?
- floor of my room.
12. Your fears?
- being hurt again.
14. Who did you hang out with last night?
- hema and the ktg group.
15. What aren’t you good at?
- controlling my emotions.
16. Muffins?
- i like those!
17. One of your wish list items?
- good o levels .
19. The last thing you did?
- talk to someone
20. What are you wearing?
- shorts with shirt?
22. Your pet?
- gave it away.
23. Your computer?
- still the same.
24. Your life?
- is fucked up.
25. Your mood?
- Feeling very lousy.
26. Missing?
- madhavi,yunkhim,parthi.
27. What are you thinking about right now?
- A certain someone
28. Your car?
- Don't own any.
29. Your work?
- studying right now.
30. Your summer?
- singapore doesnt have summer.
31. Your relationship status?
- single and hopeless.
32. Your favorite color(s)?
- Green, Black, purple.
33. When is the last time you laughed?
- this very mrng.
34. Last time you cried?
- in the toilet.
i am bored.
trying to get my mind off somethings.
since,friends left me hanging
long time ago.
ppffftttt.
fucked up.
Labels: hopes.
Friday, February 27, 2009 @ 9:45 PM
fuck.
current mood:sadlistening to:happy ending.
i was a fucker.
a total fucker.
to fucking think
that a guy like him
will fucking ever
fucking like me
for who the fucking
hell i fucking am.
to think that whatever
fucking things i do
will attract his attention.
to wonder if he would
ever fucking would like
a fucking girl like me.
i was wrong.
i was fucking wrong.
how stupid of me.
how fucking stupid.
to get my fucking hopes high.
to get my dreams soar so fucking high.
to actually fucking think
he would fucking like a
fucking girl like me.
fuck.
stupid.
fucking stupid.
fat.
fucking fat.
ugly.
fucking ugly.
me.
Labels: fucking ass.
Sunday, February 22, 2009 @ 6:48 PM
forever and always.
current mood:bored.listening to:breathe.
Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you're not pretty
But that's not true, cause I know you...
Hold on, baby, you're losing it
The water's high, you're jumping into it
And letting go... and no one knows
You cry, but you don't tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you're together with a smile
But you're coming undone
I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
Not his price to pay...
You're tied together with a smile
But you're coming undone... oh
Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby
my friends dedicated this to me.
i cried even more after hearing it.
whatever bullshit.-.-
Labels: truth?
Friday, February 20, 2009 @ 9:51 PM
too late for you and your white horse.
current mood:fatigued.listening to:vachikkava.
i am exhausted.
after 11(or is it 12?) weeks of school.
im exhausted like crazy.
i am not going to say what happen everyday
and stuff.
ps/my life isnt that great anyway.
i am always having on a fake smile.
when i see you,i get happy like crazyass.
but when i think,im overeacting.
when i take photos with people,i cant help
but see how i spoil the photo,how fat and
ugly i look and every other fact about me.
no one has ever said straight to my face
anything nice.except for one of my brothers.
but thats not the point.its like,its obvious.
when i say eg:
me to a person: ehh,i look so ugly siak!
the person: silence.
you tell me.
what do you think/infer frm that silence?
and they call themselves friends.
i repeat.
i say,themselves.
doesnt imply on just one particular person.
or whatsoever.
i hate myself.
why doesnt he like me?
you answer that,i will stop.
can i cry?
can i?
can i?
can i please?
please?
i will cry till i cant stop?
please.
i need to get the feeling out of my
head/body/mind/soul/bones/nerves/heart.
i need to talk.
to someone.
any ideas?
fuck,my msn is down.
btw,
the weather is freaking hot nowadays.
like crazy asshole siakkk!
madhavi's husband and two children(which isnt visible)
is very noisy and irritating.
inside joke.
(:
its true!
madhavi: look like chui sia!
me:(silence),really meh?little bit lah.
madhavi: obama handsome,chui handsome meh?
HAHAHAHHA.
ps/no offense to anyone who loves chui.
he is a good teacher.i agree/i agree!*grins.
we got this and freaked out like crazy.
and the best part is,once u signed,u cant
drop subjects RIGHT?buttttt,chemistry test
was effing hard and well,there were second
thoughts.&*@!&@*^#@^@&^@#_$^(#$#() !!!!
4e1's babies from bio class.
YOU SEE,THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU STUDY TOO MUCH.
what comes out,is awfully weird.
me and madhavi's daughter
who is in love withhhh,
awwwhhhhh.
haha.
i cant believe i might be a grandma soon.
whoo.im old.-.-
overdued pictures of valentines' day.
all presents,please dont expect my face.
from weilin.
from sameen.
from madhavi.
from yunkhim.
from left: madhavi,sze chieh,yunkhim's chocolates.
from atiqah.
from eunice.
(:
as i said,
i am tired.
i have tests and lessons tomorrow.
and im going to the library.
tags replied:
(from the next page of my tagbox.)
sam:
hehehe..who you like ah..?=P
reply:
no one uh.haha.
maple:
walao .. who arh ?? hmm !!!! HYE !!!!!!!!!
reply:
what arh?haha.
Eunice:
shamimah!! you always make the class more enjoyable! yayy!
reply:
haha.thanks.u make it fun too.(:
atiqah:
sham dun be sad if u gt any problems talk to me kk
reply:
haa.okay,thanks atiq.
passingby:
im sry.if eu really need to talk,talk to me.is it abt the guy?i used to be your besfriend.if eu remember.take care.
reply:
sheesh.whatever.okay,thanks btw.
maple:
u r perfect .. a perfect normal person .. boost ur self-confidence .. tats lacking .. u need it .. call jagan & bird .. sure they can help ..
there's definately someone .. he is plain useless .. such a furger . someone who is too dumb for u .. u derserve someone else . evryone here agreeS
u for whu u r . not for looks .. someone who thnks u r the best compared to all the other pl in this world.
stop thinking abt him .. i noe u cant .. but try .. try at least .. there;ll definately be someone who is thr for u at all times .. someone who loves
what can i sae ?? SMILE .. gotit !
i needa go bathe .. LOLS .. u btr smile arh .. hahaha . luff now .. NOW .. NOWWW
reply:
i understand.but i cant forget and no,there is no one
out there.who would like me,you say?if i were a boy,
i wouldnt like me also.its obvious lah.so,whats the
point?-.-
sam:
thanks for everthign u have done for me.do go my blog and tag tag also.haha..*hugs and kisses*
HAPPY VALENTINES SHAMIPUFF!i love you..haha..
TAGGED=P
reply:
haha.okok,ily too.
thx for ur valentines' day present too.
bloghopper:
saw your picture at your friend's blog .
hello , just came by your blog , you are really pretty (:
reply:
stop wasting your time and talking pure lies.
thank you very very much.
sam:
TAGGED!
reply:
thank you!(:
iman:
eh! i miss you siaaaaa! if you wna talk or anythn just call me ok! long time nvr crap with you sia! D;
reply:
i agree siahhhh!imy like crazy ass too.u also call me okay.((:
passingby:
hello!i heard that time gt reproblem?what happen?
reply:
whattttt?solve alrdy whatttt.wah god,u outdated siak.
maple:
*shark snaps * waiting for ur updates ... lalalala ... i edited our pic thou !
reply:
*sharks snap retardly*
update liaos.
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see!
somehow i make the picture look so ugly
when my friend looks good.thanks.
Labels: say okay.
Sunday, February 15, 2009 @ 8:08 PM
the melancholic.
hello!what a week!
full of anguish.
happy valentines day people!
hope you guys enjoyed it.
in total.
i was happy around the morning.
bloomed to sadness arnd the afternoon.
became serious during the evening.
and well,i became seriously seriously angry at night.
okay bitch,listen up.
if you ever think about playing with my brother
or anyone else in my life,think again.
you seriously spoiled your bloody goody-girl image.
thanks for nothing.
my brother deserves better.
and you little scum,deserves that whatever-coloured-eye guy.
have you ever heard?
karma comes around.
watch out.
i finally gave up.
i dropped my fake smile
as a tear ran down my cheek
and i whispered,
i cant do this anymore.
i really cant.
i need help.
badly.
help me.
if i wasnt so special,
why did he treat me like i was?
i dont know.
breaking promises?
i really dont know.
Labels: what goes around comes around bitch
Saturday, February 7, 2009 @ 3:36 PM
aint a fairytale.
current mood: feeling like an ass.listening to: your song.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
i need to talk to someone.
i have no one with me.
no one to talk to.
i msged so many people
and none of them calmed me down.
they just stopped.
i dont know how i am going to get through.
i dont know why they call it heartbreak
for it feels like every other part of me is broken
into a million pieces.
im a dreamer.
i dream about it everyday.
about you and me.
its never going to come true.
i have to stop dreaming.
check back into reality.
there is never going to be me and you.
isnt there any soul out there for me?
please.
i need to let my feelings out.
i cant be like this.
i feel like i am becoming crazy day by day.
all the pain i thought i knew
all my thoughts lead back to you
back to what was never said
back and forth inside my head
i csnt handle this confusion
im unable,take me away.
friends.
where are all of you when i need you guys the most?
Labels: tears keep falling though.
