Friday, July 31, 2009 @ 8:30 PM
did you forget that i was even alive?
its friday!yes,at last.
had english prelim oral today.
was fun as i played a fun game introduced by denyce.
had fun with surya,loh loh,marcus,denyce,zhiyi and ben.
HHAHA. :D
thn chatted here and there.
then was my turn.^^
was kinda scary but i think i was okay.
i have no idea.
which is always the worst part.
hais.
there is a barbeque tomorrow and im wondering if i should go.
i seem to be doing so many things nowadays that i dont have
enough time to study,thats how i feel that is.damn.but i would
soon!night-study is coming and im going to study there,thats for
sure!
i dont know if i can actually be my normal self again.i hate it when
that particular teacher keeps throwing darts at people who cant do
amaths.that doesnt mean i have nothing in my brain,does it?just because
i cant get it,and yes,not putting in my 100% effort,doesnt mean i cant
do it?people have been asking me not to do it,but i have no idea.
thats the bloody asshole problem.
cant seem to make decisions.
and i dont want to regret.
it has happened before.
p4,i was stuck in situation where i had to choose if i wanted to take
higher-mother tongue.
what i chose?NO.
and now,im regretting.
sec2,i was stuck on whether to chose home econs or bio.
what i chose?BIO.
cant say im regretting,but cant say im aceing in it either.
thats the problem with me!
i cant seem to make any proper decisions before thinking so much!
and i hate it when i think because my mind is like a damn mindmap
where it branches out to everything,god knows what!gaaaahhhh!
i realise i have a phobia of pain,rejection and regretting.
damnation.
i have no idea what im blogging about because i just needed to let it out.
and i want someone to help me,anyone!
and thank you madhavi,
for teaching me amaths.
it meant alot to me.
ps/
on a lighter note,
i did something super brave today!
cant believe i did it though.
*clap hands.
" happy birthday! "
HAHAHAHAHHA.
i have no idea how old you are though.
AHAHHAHA.
damn funny.-.-
im confused.
should i go the barbeque??!?!
damn it lah,
cant even make a simple decision!
aiyoooo!
pps/ i seriously dont like you anymore.if only my stubborn heart agrees.
whenever i see you,i feel the pain.
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